In the movie Courageous there was a line told to the father of a little girl that dies which said you can either be angry for the time you didn't get to spend with Emily or be grateful for the time you did and it left me wondering with my missing Laura...Can't I be both? Because that is how I feel about my time with Laura. Sure I am grateful that I was blessed to have her in my life...very grateful. But, I am also very angry. Angry at the briefness of it all. Angry that she is no longer a part of my life but even angrier at myself for not showing her that I cannot live without her. Because I can't. I exist but I am not really living. I breathe air when I would rather breathe in the scent of her. I drink water but would rather drink in her beauty.
Ok, I am going to stop for now but,,,there is so much more I wish I could write...so, until next time.
