My Polar Bear...

Laurie just had some great advice . You know--- Laurie from Cougar Town...yes the secret is out. I watch Cougar Town.  <(*_*)> Anyways, after Travis got his heart broken by Kirsten he took off to Hawaii. Laurie and the rest of the gang went after him and Laurie told Travis that "You should not make life changing decisions based on a girl you are running from or a girl you are chasing." And that is kinda what I have been doing with my life. You see I did actually find my polar bear/ coyote and she loved me with a passion that I had never known before...or since. Unfortunately she met me when I was still in my kid mode...you know...me me me...but when she left it turned me into my baby mode...or wah wah wah...Now that I am finally in a Christian adult man mode I am like how did she ever put up with me for so long? But, deep down, I already know the answer. She loved me even when I was being unlovable. What a concept. You know if somebody was to offer me a magical potion that if I drank it it would give me one more week with Laura but then I would die. I would happily, greedily drink it down so that I would get another chance to show her how much she really means to me. How much I really love her. My friends (worried about me tried to set me up on a blind date) but I refused to go because the lady's name was Laura. She might have been a perfectly wonderful woman but there was no way I could go out with her. My friends thought it was because I was still mad at my ex-wife but the truth was because I was still in LOVE with my ex-wife. As I still am now over 20 years later. For me everything is either BL or aL.